i’m a piece of shit that can’t even function without being medicated. I’ve cried a handful of times today and my “friends” don’t even consider me a friend anymore.
I can’t stop thinking about you. I was so close to being done with you but I’ve taken fifteen steps backwards now. I can’t do anything without it reminding me of you and what we had. you’ve poisoned not only my reality but my dreams as well.
I need to get out of this house. forever. I don’t feel safe. I don’t feel comfortable. I don’t feel relaxed. I’m constantly walking on eggshells around my parents. I feel like I can’t do anything right in their eyes.
I’ve been clean for +3 months. I don’t know how much longer I can keep that up.